I've been slacking on these updates but I'm back! Wow, how has it already been ONE month since I started. That's wild. Anyways here's a recap of the last month and how things are going.
Things I've noticed this week:
1. My body is TIRED. I noticed this week that I was running out of steam. My body seems to have hit a wall.
2. I feel stronger. Even though I'm tired, I do feel stronger. I can lift heavier with less strain. The fact that I can lift a 35lb dumbbell as easily as I can is amazing considering where I started.
3. I've gotten into a good routine. It's become habit to read, drink water, and move my body. Which, was the whole point of starting this challenge.
4. I'm not sure I want to continue it. I know I know...WHAT. It's not that I want to be lazy, it's not that I don't think I can finish it. It's actually the opposite. I started this to prove to myself that I could do it. And I've done just that. I've been consistent...to the T for a month, and I'm proud of myself. I started this to kick start myself, to push myself out of my comfort zone. I was tired of being stagnant. I needed some sort of accountability and "rules" to keep me in line. But now that it's become a habit, and a part of my life, I don't really see the need for strict "rules" to keep me in check. Life is not linear. We go through seasons. Some much easier with more free time than others. And I don't want to punish myself or put myself into a box when it doesn't make sense, just in the name of some challenge. I'm not saying that I want to "quit" cold turkey. I just won't be checking off of some arbitrary list each day. I still want to make sure I read each day, stay on top of my water, and stick to a healthy diet. I still want to intentionally move my body each week. But I want to do it in a way that feels good. I want to let my body rest when it feels like it needs it. I've noticed that I've been pushing myself to workout, even on days I need to rest, just to check it off. The last thing I need is MORE cortisol coursing through my veins. So, instead I'll be holding myself accountable. Running my own race (although not actually because running is the devil) and not comparing myself to what others are doing. I want to be healthier for me and my family, in whatever way that looks like.
All I know, is that I'm so dang proud of myself. I kicked BUTT the last month. And it's sparked that love of exercising in me again. So do I regret starting it? Absolutely not. It's been so fun to do alongside my husband. But will I keep going? Probably not. Now this doesn't mean you shouldn't go for it. By all means I will be your biggest cheerleader, but make sure you're doing it for you and listening to what feels right.
